Thursday, November 13, 2008

Human After All

There were times when I thought I could do anything. But there's no use when you don't have the aim for it.
And when I thought I was strong, turns out I'm still crying. And I'm tired.
Maybe it's time to let it go. Maybe it's time to stop.
Just like a friend said, i'm a human after all :)

Is it any wonder now the stars around me
Are not the brightest of them all
From standing proud to falling like a domino down
And out somehow
All that I remeber now about being by your side
Is having just the most amazing time
But nothing lasts forever
We're just human after all

I feel stronger now but it's not easy
To feel the pride after the fall
Feeling like I've gotta go
So it's looking like I'll never know
Why you left at all
It'll hit you with the power at any time, at any hour
But we can learn to make it if we all stand tall
It doesn't have to matter
We're just human after all

I work it out and I feel somehow
That you were bringing out the best in me
So why do I feel down when changes always do you good?
Am I feeling like I should?

From standing proud to falling like a domino down
And out somehow It'll hit you with the power
at any time, at any hour
Let it be a lesson to you all
Your crying doesn't matter
We're just human after all

{Ultra - Human After All}

{posted by Chibi on 6:01 PM} +

Monday, November 03, 2008

My Place In This World

So many things happened, and so much time spent.
There were times I feel like I can do anything, but there were times I feel like I am nothing worth than a piece of paper. Plain, used, crushed and thrown.
I know that I am not supposed to feel that way, but there were times I feel like I have done all I can to please the world, but I could not please myself. It seems like I am wearing this body and I have lost the soul inside. My brain is working, my flesh and blood are living, but my heart is dying.
I have tried to live my life as what I wanted to, as what the world wanted to, God knows, and believe me it's tiring. I am tired, but I am not even allowed to say that. Because that is the life I chose and that is what I have to do. What I wanted to do.
And if everything must fail before I even recognise it, then what life should I bear to consume my intensity?
I did not defy God in any way, but I believe that I have the right to ask Him how am I suppose to get through His tricky gifts. After all, He's the one who created the games of life. And I am nothing but a human to learn and have patience to follow the game that I cannot leave yet.

The wind is moving, but I am standing still
A life of pages waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful, a head that's full of dreams
But this becoming is harder than it seems

Feels like I'm looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world

Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world

If there are millions down on their knees
Among the many, can You still hear me
Hear me asking, Where do I belong?
Is there a vision that I can call my own?

{Michael W. Smith - Place In This World}

{posted by Chibi on 12:24 PM} +

Song:'80s-'90s songs; Matt Hires; some rocks
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Reading: Horrible Histories
Movie: Clueless
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