Wednesday, August 30, 2006

My Deadly Sins

I got this cool thing from Mai's xanga :P
It's been a while since my last time blogging, due to the craziness in my office. I've been dazed and confused, but I guess things are running well lately. It's getting better and better (I hope).

Now now, if you must know, here's my deadly sins XDDD Try you own!

Your Deadly Sins

Pride: 60%

Lust: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Sloth: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die from faulty botox injection.

How Sinful Are You?

{posted by Chibi on 11:01 AM} +

Friday, August 25, 2006

Am I Okay?

I cannot say whether I am happy or not.
I am happy with my job, yet so distressed with all the pressure around me. I am bitching everyday, but at least I still have the chance to show myself, and I am still learning of how I should be.
I must fight the inferior feeling I got from all the situation I am facing, but I am grateful that I am not offended by any superiors.
And all the fears that I have, even though I still have till now, are slightly gone, pieces by pieces, each time I got the encouragement.

And from all of my fears, the superior, turns out to be the only person who cares about me. It's funny that after all the time I was scared and need more friends, he's the only one who ask "Are you okay?" by the end of the day :)

Friends and foe, it's only a kiss away.

{posted by Chibi on 6:49 PM} +

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Linger

Okay, so I've been missing for... about 12 days :P
What had happened, it's just so many things.

So now I am in banquet sales. A lesson I got, is how to be a whore.
How to sell myself.
First, I have to wear skirt, pantyhose, high heels, mascara, shiny lipsticks, and give out my number to almost everyone I met. Hahahaha .___.
it feels like selling myself - hah! I am - and I just hate that. But once again, there were things in this world that we don't like, but we just had to do it... And I guess this is some parts of them.
I try to avoid letting myself to be the corporation dog, but the fact is that now I am working like a dog and I just still can't refuse it. I'm trying to, though.
Because lately I felt like a stupid bimbo who doesn't know what to do, while everyone around me are the expert in what they are.
And it's hard to face it, when the pressure is everywhere, and everything move so fast, and I feel like in a slow motion.
Sometimes I can't hear the world, and just like a big buzzing sound in all around me.
I know I have to get up and catching up, but yeah. I am still catching up.

Second, I am now almost always spent my time for the office matters. With office coworkers, hang-outs, meetings, etc etc.
I haven't got time to clean up my room, and it was such a mess X__x
But I've been to some new places, cafes, got addicted to coffee, loves earl grey tea with creamer, and somehow, I smoke pretty often these days.
It's not something that I can be proud of, but for the truth I hate smoke, but to inhale something when I got rusts in my brain is just felt okay.
And several times I tried to let some cars to pass me by, just to make sure that I can just die.
I'm running with myself, and I'm not fancy that. Yet, I enjoy it. Confuse? :)

And the other thing, is the sandstorms in my heart.
Two weeks, and it blew past me like a cool wind, yet so strong it could make me shiver and torn me apart.
I miss Wo. SO BAD. Yet, both of us were so frikin' busy I just met him twice for the past 10 days, and it was less than 4 hours.
And there was this something happened to me, like a flashlight, a fireworks, something extraordinary, superfantastic, and struck me out. Like a wind.
I am now in a storm.

I am happy, yet so miserable.
I am living grande, yet so broke.
I am smart, yet so fucking stupid.
I am alive, but I've been a living dead.

I am looking for my inner smile.

{posted by Chibi on 9:50 PM} +

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Stepping out

It's August 1st, so it means I have assigned to my new position in my office ;)
Yes, I left the executive secretary. And now I'm holding the position as the banquet sales.
But still, though, I'm handing it over to Mia - the new secretary for GM - and it takes time.
I still in that office - with him - and doing the jobs... and sometimes, I just didn't know where I should stand.

Ah well.
At least me head feels lighter now. I think I'm gonna enjoy my life more, no? ^^
Plus, there are new friends in the office... It's a good sign, I think. To step out from my old and boring life, and start to see outside the box.

Last weekend, feels like the remedies for all.
I had my office friends - Hajar Erli Renita - with me, and we're stepping out the office to Dago to have fun. We went to karaoke at NAV, then hitting the bilyard pool at Barcode, before then Sonny, Olva and Ady joined in. After dinner we splitted up, and Sonny Olva and Ady stayed with me.
It was Saturday night and I still felt the hype, so we decided to check out the (so called) hottest club in town, The Amare.
We got there before midnite. The club was good, I think I drank too much think (I couldn't remember the drinks after the last tequila shots) I even danced on the stage *__* (It's a good thing I didn't take my clothes off XDD). We were there until around 4.30 am, I couldn't remember how I got home, but the next when I woke up (around 9 am) my head was hurt like hell and I saw people unconscious in my room XD I mean Olva Sonny and Ady - they were scattered everywhere in my room, hahaha^^
The night was great, then on that lovely Sunday we went to salon to have, body scrubbing and massage, and in the afternoon I slept like dead :P

Well. Hopefully I can enjoy my life more after all of these.
The handing over, the changes, the new people, ...
I think it's time to stepping out and see the sun. Hopefully.

{posted by Chibi on 11:55 PM} +

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