Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Stil, in desperate mode.

Already midweek. And still feel like shit -___-

I dunno why problems always come in the wrong time. Well, okay, there will never be a right time for problems :P
But just when I'min my PMS time, so everything seems to be just hell.
I'm so easy to get cranky nowadays. But luckily, I could be calmed down pretty easy too^^

And because I already cried like an old hound dog last Monday, I guess all of my tear supplies are already dried out XD
Last night when things got even worse, I couldn't even cry. I just feel so sick about it.
And somehow, there's one person that suddenly I wanted to call.

Daddy.

Hmmm.. I know. It's weird like ever. LOL.
And I know my mum would kill me if she ever finds out that I'm calling my dad.
But..., yeah, I dunno. I know he's not the right person to have a heart-to-heart talks. Maybe because he never judge me in whatever shit I do. And maybe because he (even though) never gave the exact solutions for my problems, but somehow talking to him just giving me more peaceful space.
Maybe because we both are jerks, so we just matched XD

Or maybe I'm just crazy :P

{posted by Chibi on 8:06 PM} +

Monday, June 27, 2005

I hate Monday.

A New week. Oh yeay.
Supposedly better than last week, right? Right.
Okay.

So the good thing is, I decided to not Kidnap Wo from his house and chop him down with an axe then crush him into pieces and eat it with tomato sauce (if you read my previous entry, I was thinking of doing that). That is because he finally showed up in my door last Saturday, and we're having a nice dinner then spent the night together until he had to go back home at 3 am. Well, that is enough for me to cancel the killing plan^^

What's not good today is, I lost my brain .____.
I mean, I really don't know what to write, or doing, and all I could do was just sitting in front of my computer, trying to read and do something, but I just choked out and I couldn't stop crying. Yes, I'm a loser as I am.
And maybe no one would understand, 'coz I've been living here surrounded by people who always got what they wanted and being succesfull in every little thing they did.
Damn it.

Maybe this feeling is just temporary. Maybe I just need a hug. But maybe, all I need is just a gun with one bullet to blow in my head.
Maybe this is because the PMS, or maybe it's just the truth.
I hate myself right now.

{posted by Chibi on 5:48 PM} +

Thursday, June 23, 2005

To annoy, or not to annoy. That is the question.

Exhauuusssstteeeeddd.

And as usual, summer day in Bandung is cold and sometimes unpreictable. When I was in Gege's place this afternoon, it was hot hot hot like hell. But then just right before I go to Youngshin's house, it was raining like shit -___-;; And now I'm online here, almost freezing.

Oh well.

My mood has already better today, that's a good thing, right? ^^
Thanks to some nice friends and I'm making plans for weekend - even though, okay, I don't think I could done it all, But it was fun, though^^

So here's the list of things that was pretty upsetting these days:

+ Nindya stayed for almost a week -_- But! She already went back home now. Yeay.
+ I haven't met Mas Arie again for my damn thesis
+ Too many things disturbing while I supposed to do that damn thesis
+ My cousin is getting married next month
+ My DVD-Rom sucks - but Wo already came last Monday and put my old CD-Rom back. Oh yeay again.
+ Then Wo said he'd come on Wednesday but he cancelled it and it made me want crush him into pieces and eat it with tomato sauce
+ Then he said he still don't know when he'd see me again, and it made me want to bake him in a microwave first, chop him with an axe, then crush him into pieces and eat it with tomato sauce.
+ But then again, I can't complain 'coz I know he's busy and he already so nice to me with fixing the computer and gave me the CDs and even the food. Damn it.
+ I still want him around, and
+ I can't make him come around.

So... in that case, you see I already settle some things down.. But some points are still annoying. Hmm. It's definitely the PMS thing, right.
So then I make plans to calm myself down, take it all easy, and make myself happy :D
Here's what I did - and will do :

+ Wash all the dirty dishes - it's my stress-relieving therapy.
+ Clean up my room
+ ~~Get a new haircut~~
+ Make appointment for body and hair spa - I'm SO gonna do this
+ ~~Buy a new dress~~
+ Buy a new mascara
+ Go shopping - at least a window shopping.
+ ~~Get another date~~ - but make sure it's a clean date without booze or any sign of cannabis.
+ Kidnap Wo from his house and chop him down with an axe then crush him into pieces and eat it with tomato sauce.

The last idea sound SO fun.

{posted by Chibi on 10:56 PM} +

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Killing Mode.

Midweek. Madness!
I got several things bug me today.
Mmmm okay, my sister has gone back to Bogor (oh finally!) My room was a shipwreck, and piles of dirty dishes in the kitchen.
I've done them all. All I need is a peaceful night, and having a good time.

NAAHHH.
Some things didn't work out as I've planned it.
I came to Youngshin's house at 3.30 (supposedly at 3 pm), and I thought then maybe Wo could hang out with me (or staying) tonight, but he got his blablabla things I just had to drop it off. Blah.
I thought I could go to BreadTalk and grab some nice dinner for having a good time together tonight, but eh oh well. It pissed me off already.
I know it's not fair - just when I need him around he's just get yeayeayea whatever that was *rolls eyes* And I can't complain about that. Damn it.

And now my stomach is hurt so I grabbed a susages bread and a beef&egg bread and a cup of slushed ice choco. It's yummy, though. That's a good thing, anyway.
Oh, and Wenda came this afternoon and she gave me the CocaCola Shinhwa edition she got from Malaysia. ^^ Thanks, baby <3

And this internet connection is SO SLOW, annoy me enough and no one's here online to cheer me up :(
GAHH I'M SO PISSED I COULD KILL A HORSE.

I think I'm gonna get my period, no wonder I'm cranky :(

{posted by Chibi on 5:43 PM} +

Monday, June 20, 2005

Leave the Light On

Sunny Sunday, and already cold Monday now.
Well, okay, with a couple of minutes raining this afternoon :P
I spend this day (and yesterday, and two days ago, and three days ago) with my sister. Yeap, Nindya is here in Bandung, she had a work to do in her office here.
And she's staying here 'til next Tuesday (that's what she said).

Yesterday (Saturday) I went to King's with Youngshin. She wanted to find the Something Happened in Bali OST, and ended up carrying (not-just-a-) few DVDs too. Bhuehehe.
Then she crashed in my place for a while, with Lina too (a new friend I met few days ago), and we had some crazy K-pop talks. Haha.
By the end of the day, I was starving 'coz I hadn't eat any single thing since the other day :P No wonder my stomachache collapsed again.

I officially hate my DVD-Rom.
I know it wasn't even mine (it's my Dad's, I hi-jacked it whiles ago. Yes, I'm so cheap.), but do you think my Dad curses me for using it without his permission? :(
I need to use my old CD-Rom, but I dunno how to put it on my computer, so I have to wait for Wo to come. Blah.

On a lighter note, Wo told me few days ago that he got the Bomnal OST. Oh yeayy!! ^o^
I am SO excited I start to think to stalk him :P

But, yeah, once again, I have to be patient. Everything works in it's on way, and this week works pretty slow... for everything. I mean, not as I've planned it.
But it's not so bad, lah.

Oh well.
I really hope next week will be better ^^

{posted by Chibi on 12:15 AM} +

Friday, June 10, 2005

Mid-day Friday.

Oh it's Friday again^^
Good. I'm in the mood of having fun actually, so I often consider everyday is weekend XDD

I need to go out. Even my mum said I need to go out more >__> For a different reason, of course. She thinks that I need a new environment to get guys.
Can you believe that, my mum told me to get guys. LMAO.

I just sent out a package for my grandma - a present for her birthday last week.
And I can't believe I ripped my own gum with an appleskin .___. It's bleeding. I bought a choco blended bubble tea to cool it down and stop the bleeding. It tasted funny, y'know, blood in your mouth .__. Why am I talking about this crap.

I want a happy weekend!
Happy weekend, y'all! ^__^

{posted by Chibi on 3:37 PM} +

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Keep an eye to your life.

Tuesday. Second day of the week, and my brain is still normal :D Hehe. I like that.

Yesterday, I was actually planning to watch Star Wars in cinema with Wowo (I know it's pretty late, when the whole world already saw it and I haven't, but don't laugh, I'm not a Star Wars fan until I saw that Anakin is getting hotter on MTV Screen :P). But when we talked on the phone that afternoon, he said that he got something trouble with his eyes O_o His sight seemed to get blurred - especially the left eye, while he already got the same trouble with the right one by an accident few years ago. Since it's not the minus-kind-of blur, so he decided to go see a doctor, and I offered to company him.

So then we went to the Boromeus hospital and met the doctor, he got some pills capsules to consume for about 10 days before the next visit.
I decided to skip teaching Youngshin yesterday, becoz - hey, I can meet Youngshin everyday, but it's not everyday I can meet Wo and take him to the hospital, right? Right. XD

From the hospital, we went to the mall becoz he needed a new battery for his cellphone (and he bought me one, too - even though I don't think I really need it that much *ouch! no hitting!* Thanks, Wo :D). Then we check out some printers (oh yeah, I'm planning to buy a new printer, if I got my money enough for that :P), and I remembered that I need a new shoelaces - since Ame took one of my shoe laces XD
Then we had dinner together at Papa Ron's Pizza (funny, the last time we ate together was in Pizza Hut XD It feels like we both are some kind of pizza-freak or something :P)

He took me home by 11 (oh, we crashed in Blumen for about an hour, online just to check out my emails and get Krisna's fic since he called me and reminded me to get it while I was at the hospital XD Chatted with Mon too - we had threesome jokes and somehow it got so dodol XDD) and we spent the rest of the night in my place :)

This morning we woke up pretty late - around 10 am - then we were planning to go see Star Wars after lunch first (since he had to take his medicines), but we weren't really in the mood for cinema, oh well XD
So we just spent the day having lunch at Platinum in CiWalk. After a little walk there (checkin' out Mon's I-want-that-bag, but unfortunately it already sold out .__. Mianhe, Mon), saw some cheerleader actions (who were screaming and it was annoyingly entertaining XD Seriously), then he took me back home.

But before hitting home, we crashed at SentraKampus to get some strawberry juice, and incidentally Wowo met his old friend Kunyuk and they started talking in unrecognisable Sundanese while we're there XDD

Then we (Wo and I) got back in my place and oh yes, Wenda was there! She gave me some gifts from her trip to Thailand-Singapore-Malaysia last week. Yeayy! She said she bought me a Coca-Cola Shinhwa edition from Malaysia. Can't wait to have it, huhuhu^^ Thanks, Wen <33

Wo went home at 6 pm, after gave me a ride to Youngshin's house.
So I had a good time with him the whole day (and last night) :) I hope he remember to take his medicine on time >__> Wo, jangan lupa minum obat, ya. Hope you get better soon *hugs*

It's been a nice start for a week ^^

{posted by Chibi on 11:22 PM} +

Monday, June 06, 2005

Dying.

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

{If you're not the one}

... Dammit.

{posted by Chibi on 12:53 AM} +

Thursday, June 02, 2005

My room, at last.

Thursdaaayyy.
My mum and sisters+bro finally went back home (to Bogor) today. Huaaahhh...
They were here since last Sunday, and so I practically stuck with them, 'til today :) Funny, I was a bit nervous when she told me she came, but now after she left, I missed her already^^

And my room. Oh. My. Lord. My room.
TT___TT Even though my mum did my wardrobe closet, but my room - the bed, the floor, the table - it's all disaster!
I nearly cry when I saw a shipwreck in my room, huaaaa :((
Anyone care to help me clean up? Huks. But... oh well, at least I got my room back. For only ME!! Muhahahaha! *evil laughs*

Aaaanyway. Few things are settled, few more to go, but it's all yeah-pretty-fine till now. I dunno, I just don't wanna think about them too much, y'know. It's stressing enough, and just as a friend told me, we need to light it up for awhile :] Yeah, true true.

I'm so tired. And I miss my room. And I miss some people. People, do you hear? XDD *hugs all*

{posted by Chibi on 9:53 PM} +

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